Nothing again

I'm fuckin' tired or everything. I need more patience but I'm just not in the mood for that. I wanna go somewhere with my friends, get drunk and do crazy things. Because that's what summer holiday is for, isn't it? Okay, I didn't really mean that. But sometimes, it feels nice. I'm gonna switch my damn computer off and do something in the real world. Though I don't care about anything. But let's pretend I do. My eyes hurt. I've been sitting here for at least 5 hours. Damn. I definietly need a break.

SHIT

I wrote so much. AND THEN IT JUST DISAPPEARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ugh. Not my day. Maybe I'll write it again later. But now I'm too pissed.

Just In English

Now I'm in the mood to write a post in English. No idea, why, I just feel the need to do it. I'll probably make mistakes. Do I care? No, I don't. I wass sitting at home all day, doing nothing but I somehow enjoyed it. I painted my nails blue, I watched Vampire Diaries and Fallen. I think now I'm addicted to VD, too. Shit. First LotR, then Harry Potter, then Twilight, then Supernatural and now this. It's a bit too much and they're just films/books/tv series and I haven't even mention my obsession toward music or rhythmic gymnastics or other things like English or writing... I could do soo much today and I did nothing. NOTHING. I'm too lazy to continue writing my first novel's first chapter, though I'd love to do it and then publish it. I want to translate a Supernatural slash fic to Hungarian. And then maybe write some... And I should finish my other stories. And do some sports. Sitting in one place all day is no good for me. I need to do something to get back at least to my 'normal shape' or something better than that. Gosh, I've never imagined that I'd ever want to write about nothing in English. I used to hate it and now it's a part of my life and sometimes I'm not thinking and dreaming in Hungarian which is a bit scary but nice thing. Okay, I'm finished for now. I need to go to bed or something. I can't sleep through the day because of my stupid medicine. I'm kinda afraid of it. Antibiotics. Ugh. They have more bad side effects than doing any good.
This summer is weird. I thought my first, completely highschool-free summer will be the best in my life. But it's not quite far from that. I won't go anywhere, I'll work and I'm stuck in this boring town, mostly without my friends. But I still enjoy it. My last summer was way better, but now I'll have more time spent alone, so maybe, just maybe, finally I'll be able to finish my first novel. But maybe, or not just maybe, I'm too lazy for that. Now I'm really off to bed. Seriously.